I feel a kinship with anyone who’s known this kind of fear, particularly if they don’t yet perceive any resources to get them to that magic point when it loosens its grip;
In my career as a leader, I’ve had plenty more opportunities to experience the fear that often comes knocking when I find myself on the threshold of learning or doing something new to me. I don’t know exactly why this is so. I’ve heard that there’s no time in the emotional world, and that the strong feelings that were evoked from formative early experiences, remain somehow embedded and poised to resurface during similar experiences, later in life. But I’ve learned that the feeling goes away when I allow myself to step over the particular threshold into the unknown newness I happen to be facing, bolstered by the awareness that I have other resources that will help. It’s also helped remembering that this is a pattern, and drawing from past experiences where I’ve successfully navigated past fear into high achievement. I suppose it’s a kind of faith that allows me to lovingly contain the fear long enough to feel it’s dissipation ~ like an exercise in hope.
I feel a kinship with anyone who's known this kind of fear, particularly if they don’t yet perceive any resources to get them to that magic point when it loosens its grip; or if, by life’s circumstances, they haven’t yet developed a pattern from which to draw of successfully managing through those dark moments. For youth who find themselves in these kinds of tough moments, ReachOut USA is there with tools, information, and the kind of human connection that matters so much.
I don’t know what it will be like when I jump into the Bay at Angel Island on September 20th along with 900 or so other swimmers. I do know that I’ll make it to Tiburon, though, thanks to Mrs. Vasa, and a little faith! Thank you for your support of this effort ~ any amount will help the good folks at ReachOut USA to do their great work!